{"id":7336,"date":"2020-03-18T19:05:01","date_gmt":"2020-03-18T19:05:01","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/narrativenortheast.com\/?p=7336"},"modified":"2020-03-19T22:39:28","modified_gmt":"2020-03-19T22:39:28","slug":"dark-arts-paul-latorre","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/narrativenortheast.com\/?p=7336","title":{"rendered":"DARK ARTS &#8211; Paul LaTorre"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<ul class=\"wp-block-gallery columns-1 is-cropped wp-block-gallery-1 is-layout-flex wp-block-gallery-is-layout-flex\"><li class=\"blocks-gallery-item\"><figure><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"780\" height=\"520\" src=\"https:\/\/narrativenortheast.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/TMH-Line-of-Harry-Potter-Dark-Arts-Journals-Cover-Art-by-ConQuest-Journals-.jpg\" alt=\"\" data-id=\"7392\" data-link=\"https:\/\/narrativenortheast.com\/?attachment_id=7392\" class=\"wp-image-7392\" srcset=\"https:\/\/narrativenortheast.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/TMH-Line-of-Harry-Potter-Dark-Arts-Journals-Cover-Art-by-ConQuest-Journals-.jpg 780w, https:\/\/narrativenortheast.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/TMH-Line-of-Harry-Potter-Dark-Arts-Journals-Cover-Art-by-ConQuest-Journals--300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/narrativenortheast.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/TMH-Line-of-Harry-Potter-Dark-Arts-Journals-Cover-Art-by-ConQuest-Journals--768x512.jpg 768w, https:\/\/narrativenortheast.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/TMH-Line-of-Harry-Potter-Dark-Arts-Journals-Cover-Art-by-ConQuest-Journals--720x480.jpg 720w, https:\/\/narrativenortheast.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/TMH-Line-of-Harry-Potter-Dark-Arts-Journals-Cover-Art-by-ConQuest-Journals--454x304.jpg 454w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 780px) 100vw, 780px\" \/><\/figure><\/li><\/ul>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-audio\"><audio controls src=\"https:\/\/narrativenortheast.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/NN-Dark_Arts_-_Paul_LaTorre.mp4\"><\/audio><\/figure>\n\n\n<p>\u00a0<br \/><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-7206\" src=\"https:\/\/narrativenortheast.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/Paul-LaTorre-1-150x150.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" \/>Paul LaTorre is a poet, activist and educator who teaches at Bloomfield College in NJ. Blending pop culture with advocacy for various forms of trauma including abuse, disorder, and mental health issues, his aim is to create dark poems with a sense of levity. Paul&#8217;s work has been published in <em>Zeitgeist, Drunk Monkeys, Narrative Northeast, BLINK<\/em> and has been featured on the <em>DREAM Act&#8217;s<\/em> &#8216;voices&#8217; portal. His chapbook of poetry, <em>Disappearing Boy,<\/em> was recently published by the 3 Mile Harbor Press.<\/p>\n<p>(Transcript)<\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p><strong>DARK ARTS<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>This sex is not the type<\/p>\n<p>with nails dug in<\/p>\n<p>&amp; marks on back\u2014\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>it\u2019s the type where you call them back<\/p>\n<p>later that day \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 to ask if they got home okay.<\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>It\u2019s the kind you can\u2019t \u00a0\u00a0 connect\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>to consciousness<\/p>\n<p>long enough<\/p>\n<p>to muster words \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 either way.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <em>Silencio<\/em><\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>Where you seem present \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>but spectral hover above the bed\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <em>Wingardium Leviosa<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Like some Myrtle ghost of dissociate,<\/p>\n<p>Polyjuice brewing \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 other\u2019s face,<\/p>\n<p>left hand gone\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 translucent \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <em>Evanesco<\/em><\/p>\n<p>&amp; there\u2019s no one there<\/p>\n<p>to pull you through,<\/p>\n<p>just apparition \u00a0 of you\u2026\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 vanishing\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>So sure, you relent. . .\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>turn serious, black \/\/ riddikulus<\/p>\n<p>shadow you \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 &amp;\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 fold\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 in defense.<\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>The girl I lost my virginity to\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>raped me\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 twice \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>in my room.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>The door open.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>In broad afternoon\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>&amp; I know what you\u2019ll say\u2014\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <em>&#8220;Men can\u2019t be raped.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n<p>It doesn\u2019t work like that,\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>anatomically, one must keep\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 up<\/p>\n<p>in order to penetrate,<\/p>\n<p>but I am living<\/p>\n<p>testament \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 contrary.<\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>In some strange way, \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>I thought her rapaciousness praise\u2014\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>that being ensnared by her \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>could validate manliness,<\/p>\n<p>someone wanting this chubby muggle kid<\/p>\n<p>so much they\u2019d tear through clothes,<\/p>\n<p>objections &amp; protection \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 spells;<\/p>\n<p>she made me forget\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 myself.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <em>Obliviate<\/em><\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>This girl was sorceress\u2014\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>a contortionist, bending bodily frame<\/p>\n<p>&amp; brain \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 &amp; I\u2014no escape artist, \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>couldn\u2019t conjure cloak of invisible, \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>caught in grip of constrictor hips,<\/p>\n<p>writhing wand while hex left lips\u2014\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <em>Imperius<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <\/em>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>But what if doors are not Patronuses<\/p>\n<p>to keep Death-eaters at bay<\/p>\n<p>but rather portholes<\/p>\n<p>to be entered \/\/ breached\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>disarming spells \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <em>Expelliarmus<\/em><\/p>\n<p>you thought would help<\/p>\n<p>you erase details:\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>the grey of the wallpaper,\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>cold of sheets,\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>day of the week, \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>the snakes in her hair \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 (red or green?)<\/p>\n<p>that every impression impressed<\/p>\n<p>can latch onto you \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 &amp; sink fangs into. . .<\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>I was caught between \u00a0<\/p>\n<p>Nagini gaze \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 &amp; some hard place, \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<em>Stupefy<\/em><\/p>\n<p>escape became astral plane, \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>trapped in chest;<\/p>\n<p>bound to bed.<\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>The second time, \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>didn\u2019t get to use protection. \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>She woke me up &amp; rode\u2014<\/p>\n<p>cackling as I said \u201cNO\u201d. . .\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 (like it\u2019s a joke)<\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>I felt like that, though.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>Any time I brought up my violation,<\/p>\n<p>it was turned anecdote\u2014<em>\u201cShit, she could rape me any day,\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 ya know?\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>Comedian Terry Crews was mocked<\/p>\n<p>when he accused a man \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 of sexually abusing him.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>Imagine what I get. . .<\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>Trauma\u2019s not some stand-up \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 act,<\/p>\n<p>see, when I\u2019d confess\u2014<\/p>\n<p>felt so un-believed \/\/ repressed, \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I stopped trying to.<\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>&amp; I know, our kind are due\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>millenia negative back-karma;<\/p>\n<p>Men are snakes\u2014\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 dumb<\/p>\n<p>&amp; often venomous, \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>wrapping prey in anaconda\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 vise;<\/p>\n<p>We bar-hop carnage &amp; force down limbs \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>before digest, swallow whole through esophagus.<\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>But I hadn\u2019t fed on anyone.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I was just 17, a neolate.<\/p>\n<p><em>\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>\u201cMan up, you must have wanted it.<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>Men. \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Always.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Consent.\u201d\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <\/em> \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>(INCORRECT)<em>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <\/em><\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>Fathom backing a stance\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 so radioactive;<\/p>\n<p>Imagine dragons nesting \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 in multitudes \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>on top of you, \u00a0 teething \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 fantastic beasts\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>consuming lock &amp; key \u00a0\u00a0 as their mother did. . .<\/p>\n<p>hung in the upside-down\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <em>Levicorpus<\/em><\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>Rape is about power, not sex.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>A display of dominance.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>&amp; She \u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0who shall not be named\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>lorded hers over me, \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0sorceress\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 left<\/p>\n<p>hurriedly only to text the next day<\/p>\n<p>&amp; say she was carrying.\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>It had to be mine.<\/p>\n<p>That as a man, \u201cyou have to provide\u201d<em>.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>&amp; I wanted anything but that<\/p>\n<p>to be true\u2014to tether us.\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>When asked by friends<\/p>\n<p>why I wouldn\u2019t raise my kid \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 to be just like me,\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>one devoid of empathy,\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>kind to breed \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n<p>this raze &amp; 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