{"id":1611,"date":"2014-01-31T11:11:26","date_gmt":"2014-01-31T11:11:26","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/narrativenortheast.com\/?p=1611"},"modified":"2014-01-31T17:00:51","modified_gmt":"2014-01-31T17:00:51","slug":"edison-new-jersey-junot-diaz","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/narrativenortheast.com\/?p=1611","title":{"rendered":"EDISON, NEW JERSEY – Junot Diaz"},"content":{"rendered":"

The first time <\/strong>we try to deliver the Gold Crown the lights are on in the house but no one lets us in. I bang on the front door and Wayne hits the back and I can hear our double drum shaking the windows. Right then I have this feeling that someone is inside, laughing at us.<\/p>\n

This guy better have a good excuse, Wayne says, lumbering around the newly planted rosebushes. This is bullshit.<\/p>\n

You\u2019re telling me, I say but Wayne\u2019s the one who takes this job too seriously. He pounds some more on the door, his face jiggling. A couple of times he raps on the windows, tries squinting through the curtains. I take a more philosophical approach; I walk over to the ditch that has been cut next to the road, a drainage pipe half filled with water, and sit down. I smoke and watch a mama duck and her three ducklings scavenge the grassy bank and then float downstream like they\u2019re on the same string. Beautiful, I say but Wayne doesn\u2019t hear. He\u2019s banging on the door with the staple gun.<\/p>\n

__________<\/p>\n

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At nine Wayne picks me up at the showroom and by then I have our route planned out. The order forms tell me everything I need to know about the customers we\u2019ll be dealing with that day. If someone is just getting a fifty-two-inch card table delivered then you know they aren\u2019t going to give you too much of a hassle but they also aren\u2019t going to tip. Those are your Spotswood, Sayreville and Perth Amboy deliveries. The pool tables go north to the rich suburbs\u2014Livingston, Ridgewood, Bedminster.<\/p>\n

You should see our customers. Doctors, diplomats, surgeons, presidents of universities, ladies in slacks and silk tops who sport thin watches you could trade in for a car, who wear comfortable leather shoes. Most of them prepare for us by laying down a path of yesterday\u2019s Washington Post from the front door to the game room. I make them pick it all up. I say: Carajo, what if we slip? Do you know what two hundred pounds of slate could do to a floor? The threat of property damage puts the chop-chop in their step. The best customers leave us alone until the bill has to be signed. Every now and then we\u2019ll be given water in paper cups. Few have offered us more, though a dentist from Ghana once gave us a six-pack of Heineken while we worked.<\/p>\n

Sometimes the customer has to jet to the store for cat food or a newspaper while we\u2019re in the middle of a job. I\u2019m sure you\u2019ll be all right, they say. They never sound too sure. Of course, I say. Just show us where the silver\u2019s at. The customers ha-ha and we ha-ha and then they agonize over leaving, linger by the front door, trying to memorize everything they own, as if they don\u2019t know where to find us, who we work for.<\/p>\n

Once they\u2019re gone, I don\u2019t have to worry about anyone bothering me. I put down the ratchet, crack my knuckles and explore, usually while Wayne is smoothing out the felt and doesn\u2019t need help. I take cookies from the kitchen, razors from the bathroom cabinets. Some of these houses have twenty, thirty rooms. On the ride back I figure out how much loot it would take to fill up all that space. I\u2019ve been caught roaming around plenty of times but you\u2019d be surprised how quickly someone believes you\u2019re looking for the bathroom if you don\u2019t jump when you\u2019re discovered, if you just say, Hi.<\/p>\n

After the paperwork\u2019s been signed, I have a decision to make. If the customer has been good and tipped well, we call it even and leave. If the customer has been an ass\u2014maybe they yelled, maybe they let their kids throw golf balls at us\u2014I ask for the bathroom. Wayne will pretend that he hasn\u2019t seen this before; he\u2019ll count the drill bits while the customer (or their maid) guides the vacuum over the floor. Excuse me, I say. I let them show me the way to the bathroom (usually I already know) and once the door is shut I cram bubble bath drops into my pockets and throw fist-sized wads of toilet paper into the toilet. I take a dump if I can and leave that for them.<\/p>\n

__________<\/p>\n

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Most of the time Wayne and I work well together. He\u2019s the driver and the money man and I do the lifting and handle the assholes. Tonight we\u2019re on our way to Lawrenceville and he wants to talk to me about Charlene, one of the showroom girls, the one with the blowjob lips. I haven\u2019t wanted to talk about women in months, not since the girlfriend.<\/p>\n

I really want to pile her, he tells me. Maybe on one of the Madisons.<\/p>\n

Man, I say, cutting my eyes towards him. Don\u2019t you have a wife or something?<\/p>\n

He gets quiet. I\u2019d still like to pile her, he says defensively.<\/p>\n

And what will that do?<\/p>\n

Why does it have to do anything?<\/p>\n

Twice this year Wayne\u2019s cheated on his wife and I\u2019ve heard it all, the before and the after. The last time his wife nearly tossed his ass out to the dogs. Neither of the women seemed worth it to me. One of them was even younger than Charlene. Wayne can be a moody\u00a0guy and this is one of those nights; he slouches in the driver\u2019s seat and swerves through traffic, riding other people\u2019s bumpers like I\u2019ve told him not to do. I don\u2019t need a collision or a four-hour silent treatment so I try to forget that I think his wife is good people and ask him if Charlene\u2019s given him any signals. He slows the truck down. Signals like you wouldn\u2019t believe, he says.<\/p>\n

___________<\/p>\n

On the days we have no deliveries the boss has us working at the showroom, selling cards and poker chips and mankala boards. Wayne spends his time skeezing the salesgirls and dusting shelves. He\u2019s a big goofy guy\u2014I don\u2019t understand why the girls dig his shit. One of those mysteries of the universe. The boss keeps me in the front of the store, away from the pool tables. He knows I\u2019ll talk to the customers, tell them not to buy the cheap models. I\u2019ll say shit like, Stay away from those Bristols. Wait until you can get something real. Only when he needs my Spanish will he let me help on a sale. Since I\u2019m no good at cleaning or selling slot machines, I slouch behind the front register and steal. I don\u2019t ring anything up, and pocket what comes in. I don\u2019t tell Wayne. He\u2019s too busy running his fingers through his beard, keeping the waves on his nappy head in order. A hundred-buck haul\u2019s not unusual for me and back in the day, when the girlfriend used to pick me up, I\u2019d buy her anything she wanted, dresses, silver rings, lingerie. Sometimes I blew it all on her. She didn\u2019t like the stealing but hell, we weren\u2019t made out of loot and I liked going into a place and saying, Jeva, pick out anything, it\u2019s yours. This is the closest I\u2019ve come to feeling rich.<\/p>\n

Nowadays I take the bus home and the cash stays with me. I sit next to this three-hundred-pound rock and- roll chick who washes dishes at the Friendly\u2019s. She tells me about the roaches she kills with her water nozzle. Boils the wings right off them. On Thursday I buy myself lottery tickets\u2014ten Quick Picks and a couple of Pick 4s. I don\u2019t bother with the little stuff.<\/p>\n

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The second time we bring the Gold Crown the heavy curtain next to the door swings up like a Spanish fan. A woman stares at me and Wayne\u2019s too busy knocking to see. Mu\u00f1eca, I say. She\u2019s black and unsmiling and then the curtain drops between us, a whisper on the glass. She had on a t-shirt that said No Problem and didn\u2019t look like she owned the place. She looked more like the help and couldn\u2019t have been older than twenty and from the thinness of her face I pictured the rest of her skinny. We stared at each other for a second at the most, not enough for me to notice the shape of her ears or if her lips were chapped. I\u2019ve fallen in love on less.\u00a0Later in the truck, on the way back to the showroom Wayne mutters, This guy is dead. I mean it.<\/p>\n

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The girlfriend calls sometimes but not often. She has found herself a new boyfriend, some z\u00e1ngano who works at a record store. Dan is his name and the way she says it, so painfully gringo, makes the corners of my eyes narrow. The clothes I\u2019m sure this guy tears from her when they both get home from work\u2014the chokers, the rayon skirts from the Warehouse, the lingerie\u2014I bought with stolen money and I\u2019m glad that none of it was earned straining my back against hundreds of pounds of raw rock. I\u2019m glad for that.<\/p>\n

The last time I saw her in person was in Hoboken. She was with Dan and hadn\u2019t yet told me about him and hurried across the street in her high clogs to avoid me and my boys, who even then could sense me turning, turning into the motherfucker who\u2019ll put a fist through anything. She flung one hand in the air but didn\u2019t stop. A month before the z\u00e1ngano, I went to her
\nhouse, a friend visiting a friend, and her parents asked me how business was, as if I balanced the books or something. Business is outstanding, I said.<\/p>\n

That\u2019s really wonderful to hear, the father said.<\/p>\n

You betcha.<\/p>\n

He asked me to help him mow his lawn and while we were dribbling gas into the tank he offered me a job. A real one that you can build on. Utilities, he said, is nothing to be ashamed of.<\/p>\n

Later the parents went into the den to watch the Giants lose and she took me into her bathroom. She put on her makeup because we were going to a movie. If I had your eyelashes, I\u2019d be famous, she told me. The Giants started losing real bad. I still love you, she said and I was embarrassed for the two of us, the way I\u2019m embarrassed at those afternoon talk shows where broken couples and unhappy families let their hearts hang out.<\/p>\n

We\u2019re friends, I said and Yes, she said, yes we are.<\/p>\n

There wasn\u2019t much space so I had to put my heels on the edge of the bathtub. The cross I\u2019d given her dangled down on its silver chain so I put it in my mouth to keep it from poking me in the eye. By the time we finished my legs were bloodless, broomsticks inside my rolled-down baggies and as her breathing got smaller and smaller against my neck, she said, I do, I still do.<\/p>\n

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Each payday I take out the old calculator and figure how long it\u2019d take me to buy a pool table honestly. A top-of-the-line, three-piece slate affair doesn\u2019t come cheap. You have to buy sticks and balls and chalk and a score keeper and triangles and French tips if you\u2019re a fancy shooter. Two and a half years if I give up buying underwear and eat only pasta but even this figure\u2019s
\nbogus. Money\u2019s never stuck to me, ever.<\/p>\n

Most people don\u2019t realize how sophisticated pool tables are. Yes, tables have bolts and staples on the rails but these suckers hold together mostly by gravity and by the precision of their construction. If you treat a good table right it will outlast you. Believe me. Cathedrals are built like that. There are Incan roads in the Andes that even today you couldn\u2019t work a knife between two of the cobblestones. The sewers that the Romans built in Bath were so good that they weren\u2019t replaced until the 1950s. That\u2019s the sort of thing I can believe in.<\/p>\n

These days I can build a table with my eyes closed. Depending on how rushed we are I might build the table alone, let Wayne watch until I need help putting on the slate. It\u2019s better when the customers stay out of our faces, how they react when we\u2019re done, how they run fingers on the lacquered rails and suck in their breath, the felt so tight you couldn\u2019t pluck it if you tried. Beautiful, is what they say and we always nod, talc on our fingers, nod again, beautiful.<\/p>\n

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The boss nearly kicked our asses over the Gold Crown. The customer, an asshole named Pruitt, called up crazy, said we were delinquent. That\u2019s how the boss put it. Delinquent. We knew that\u2019s what the customer called us because the boss doesn\u2019t use words like that. Look boss, I said, we knocked like crazy. I mean, we knocked like federal marshals. Like Paul Bunyan. The boss\u00a0wasn\u2019t having it. You fuckos, he said. You butthogs. He tore us for a good two minutes and then dismissed us. For most of that night I didn\u2019t think I had a job so I hit the bars, fantasizing that I would bump into this carbon out with that black woman while me and my boys were cranked but the next morning Wayne came by with that Gold Crown again. Both of us had hangovers. One\u00a0more time, he said. An extra delivery, no overtime. We hammered on the door for ten minutes but no one answered. I jimmied with the windows and the back door and I could have sworn I heard her behind the patio door. I knocked hard and heard footsteps.<\/p>\n

We called the boss and told him what was what and the boss called the house but no one answered. OK, the boss said. Get those card tables done. That night, as we lined up the next day\u2019s paperwork, we got a call from Pruitt and he didn\u2019t use the word delinquent. He wanted us to come late at night but we were booked. Two-month waiting list, the boss reminded him. I
\nlooked over at Wayne and wondered how much money this guy was pouring into the boss\u2019s ear. Pruitt said he was contrite and determined and asked us to come again. His maid was sure to let us in.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

What the hell kind of name is Pruitt anyway? Wayne asks me when we swing onto the parkway.<\/p>\n

Pato name, I say. Anglo or some other bog people.<\/p>\n

Probably a fucking banker. What\u2019s the first name?<\/span><\/p>\n

Just an initial, C. Clarence Pruitt sounds about right.<\/p>\n

Yeah, Clarence, Wayne yuks.<\/p>\n

Pruitt. Most of our customers have names like this,court case names: Wooley, Maynard, Gass, Binder, but the people from my town, our names, you see on convicts or coupled together on boxing cards.<\/p>\n

We take our time. Go to the Rio Diner, blow an hour and all the dough we have in our pockets. Wayne is talking about Charlene and I\u2019m leaning my head against a thick pane of glass.<\/p>\n

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Pruitt\u2019s neighborhood has recently gone up and only his court is complete. Gravel roams off this way and\u00a0that, shaky. You can see inside the other houses, their newly formed guts, nailheads bright and sharp on the fresh timber. Wrinkled blue tarps protect wiring and fresh plaster. The driveways are mud and on each lawn stand huge stacks of sod. We park in front of Pruitt\u2019s house and bang on the door. I give Wayne a hard look when I see no car in the garage.<\/p>\n

Yes? I hear a voice inside say.<\/p>\n

We\u2019re the delivery guys, I yell.<\/p>\n

A bolt slides, a lock turns, the door opens. She stands in our way, wearing black shorts and a gloss of red on her lips and I\u2019m sweating.<\/p>\n

Come in, yes? She stands back from the door, holding\u00a0it open.<\/p>\n

Sounds like Spanish, Wayne says.<\/p>\n

No shit, I say, switching over. Do you remember me?<\/p>\n

No, she says.<\/p>\n

I look over at Wayne. Can you believe this?<\/p>\n

I can believe anything, kid.<\/p>\n

You heard us didn\u2019t you? The other day, that was you.<\/p>\n

She shrugs and opens the door wider.<\/p>\n

You better tell her to prop that with a chair. Wayne heads back to unlock the truck.<\/p>\n

You hold that door, I say.<\/p>\n

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We\u2019ve had our share of delivery trouble. Trucks break down. Customers move and leave us with an empty house. Handguns get pointed. Slate gets dropped, a rail goes missing. The felt is the wrong color, the Dufferins get left in the warehouse. Back in the day, the girlfriend\u00a0<\/span>and I made a game of this. A prediction game. In the mornings I rolled onto my pillow and said, What\u2019s today going to be like?<\/p>\n

Let me check. She put her fingers up to her widow\u2019s peak and that motion would shift her breasts, her hair. We never slept under any covers, not in spring, fall or summer and our bodies were dark and thin the whole year.<\/p>\n

I see an asshole customer, she murmured. Unbearable traffic. Wayne\u2019s going to work slow. And then you\u2019ll come home to me.<\/p>\n

Will I get rich?<\/p>\n

You\u2019ll come home to me. That\u2019s the best I can do.<\/p>\n

And then we\u2019d kiss hungrily because this was how we loved each other.<\/p>\n

The game was part of our mornings, the way our showers and our sex and our breakfasts were. We stopped playing only when it started to go wrong for us, when I\u2019d wake up and listen to the traffic outside without waking her, when everything was a fight.<\/p>\n

She stays in the kitchen while we work. I can hear her humming. Wayne\u2019s shaking his right hand like he\u2019s scalded his fingertips. Yes, she\u2019s fine. She has her back to me, her hands stirring around in a full sink, when I walk in.<\/p>\n

I try to sound conciliatory. You\u2019re from the city?<\/p>\n

A nod.<\/p>\n

Where about?<\/p>\n

Washington Heights.<\/p>\n

Dominicana, I say. Quisqueyana. She nods. What street?<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t know the address, she says. I have it written down. My mother and my brothers live there.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m Dominican, I say.<\/p>\n

You don\u2019t look it.<\/p>\n

I get a glass of water. We\u2019re both staring out at the muddy lawn.<\/p>\n

She says, I didn\u2019t answer the door because I wanted to piss him off.<\/p>\n

Piss who off?<\/p>\n

I want to get out of here, she says.<\/p>\n

Out of here?<\/p>\n

I\u2019ll pay you for a ride.<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t think so, I say.<\/p>\n

Aren\u2019t you from Nueva York?<\/p>\n

No.<\/p>\n

Then why did you ask the address?<\/p>\n

Why? I have family near there.<\/p>\n

Would it be that big of a problem?<\/p>\n

I say in English that she should have her boss bring her but she stares at me blankly. I switch over.<\/p>\n

He\u2019s a pendejo, she says, suddenly angry. I put down the glass, move next to her to wash it. She\u2019s exactly my height and smells of liquid detergent and has tiny beautiful\u00a0moles on her neck, an archipelago leading down into her clothes.<\/p>\n

Here, she says, putting out her hand but I finish it and go back to the den.<\/p>\n

Do you know what she wants us to do? I say to\u00a0Wayne.<\/p>\n

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Her room is upstairs, a bed, a closet, a dresser, yellow wallpaper. Spanish Cosmo and El Diario thrown on the floor. Four hangers\u2019 worth of clothes in the closet and only the top dresser drawer is full. I put my hand on the bed and the cotton sheets are cool.
\nPruitt has pictures of himself in his room. He\u2019s tan and probably has been to more countries than I know capitals for. Photos of him on vacations, on beaches ,standing beside a wide-mouth Pacific salmon he\u2019s hooked. The size of his dome would have made Broca proud. The bed is made and his wardrobe spills out onto chairs and a line of dress shoes follows the far wall.\u00a0A bachelor. I find an open box of Trojans in his dresser beneath a stack of boxer shorts. I put one of the condoms in my pocket and stick the rest under his bed.<\/p>\n

I find her in her room. He likes clothes, she says.<\/p>\n

A habit of money, I say but I can\u2019t translate it right;<\/p>\n

I end up agreeing with her. Are you going to pack?<\/p>\n

She holds up her purse. I have everything I need. He can keep the rest of it.<\/p>\n

You should take some of your things.<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t care about that vaina. I just want to go.<\/p>\n

Don\u2019t be stupid, I say. I open her dresser and pull out the shorts on top and a handful of soft bright panties fall out and roll down the front of my jeans.<\/p>\n

There are more in the drawer. I try to catch them but as soon as I touch their fabric I let everything go.<\/p>\n

Leave it. Go on, she says and begins to put them back in the dresser, her square back to me, the movement of her hands smooth and easy.<\/p>\n

Look, I say.<\/p>\n

Don\u2019t worry. She doesn\u2019t look up.<\/p>\n

I go downstairs. Wayne is sinking the bolts into the slate with the Makita. You can\u2019t do it, he says.<\/p>\n

Why not?<\/p>\n

Kid. We have to finish this.<\/p>\n

I\u2019ll be back before you know it. A quick trip, in out.<\/p>\n

Kid. He stands up slowly; he\u2019s nearly twice as old as me.<\/p>\n

I go to the window and look out. New gingkoes stand in rows beside the driveway. A thousand years ago when I was still in college I learned something about them. Living fossils. Unchanged since their inception millions of years ago. You tagged Charlene, didn\u2019t you?<\/p>\n

Sure did, he answers easily.<\/p>\n

I take the truck keys out of the toolbox. I\u2019ll be right back, I promise.<\/p>\n

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My mother still has pictures of the girlfriend in her apartment. The girlfriend\u2019s the sort of person who never looks bad. There\u2019s a picture of us at the bar where I taught her to play pool. She\u2019s leaning on the Schmelke I stole for her, nearly a grand worth of cue, frowning at the shot I left her, a shot she\u2019d go on to miss.<\/p>\n

The picture of us in Florida is the biggest\u2014shiny, framed, nearly a foot tall. We\u2019re in our bathing suits and the legs of some stranger frame the right. She has her\u00a0butt in the sand, knees folded up in front of her because she knew I was sending the picture home to my moms; she didn\u2019t want my mother to see her bikini, didn\u2019t want my mother to think her a whore. I\u2019m crouching next to her, smiling, one hand on her thin shoulder, one of her moles showing between my fingers.<\/p>\n

My mother won\u2019t look at the pictures or talk about her when I\u2019m around but my sister says she still cries over the breakup. Around me my mother\u2019s polite, sits quietly on the couch while I tell her about what I\u2019m reading and how work has been. Do you have anyone? she asks me sometimes.<\/p>\n

Yes, I say.<\/p>\n

She talks to my sister on the side, says, In my dreams they\u2019re still together.<\/p>\n

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We reach the Washington Bridge without saying a word. She\u2019s emptied his cupboards and refrigerator; the bags are at her feet. She\u2019s eating corn chips but I\u2019m too nervous to join in.<\/p>\n

Is this the best way? she asks. The bridge doesn\u2019t seem to impress her.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s the shortest way.<\/p>\n

She folds the bag shut. That\u2019s what he said when I arrived last year. I wanted to see the countryside. There was too much rain to see anything anyway.<\/p>\n

I want to ask her if she loves her boss, but I ask instead,\u00a0How do you like the States?<\/p>\n

She swings her head across at the billboards. I\u2019m not\u00a0surprised by any of it, she says.<\/p>\n

Traffic on the bridge is bad and she has to give me\u00a0an oily fiver for the toll. Are you from the Capital? I\u00a0ask.<\/p>\n

No.<\/p>\n

I was born there. In Villa Juana. Moved here when I was a little boy.<\/p>\n

She nods, staring out at the traffic. As we cross over the bridge I drop my hand into her lap. I leave it there, palm up, fingers slightly curled. Sometimes you just have to try, even if you know it won\u2019t work. She turns her head away slowly, facing out beyond the bridge cables,
\nout to Manhattan and the Hudson.<\/p>\n

Everything in Washington Heights is Dominican. You can\u2019t go a block without passing a Quisqueya Bakery or a Quisqueya Supermercado or a Hotel Quisqueya. If I were to park the truck and get out nobody would take me for a deliveryman; I could be the guy who\u2019s on the street corner selling Dominican flags. I could be on my way home to my girl. Everybody\u2019s\u00a0on the streets and the merengue\u2019s falling out of windows like TVs. When we reach her block I ask a kid with the sag for the building and he points out the stoop with his pinkie. She gets out of the truck and straightens the front of her sweatshirt before following the line that the kid\u2019s finger has cut across the street. Cu\u00eddate, I say.<\/p>\n

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Wayne works on the boss and a week later I\u2019m back, on probation, painting the warehouse. Wayne brings me meatball sandwiches from out on the road, skinny things with a seam of cheese gumming the bread.<\/p>\n

Was it worth it? he asks me.<\/p>\n

He\u2019s watching me close. I tell him it wasn\u2019t.<\/p>\n

Did you at least get some?<\/p>\n

Hell yeah, I say.<\/p>\n

Are you sure?<\/p>\n

Why would I lie about something like that? Homegirl was an animal. I still have the teeth marks.<\/p>\n

Damn, he says.<\/p>\n

I punch him in the arm. And how\u2019s it going with you and Charlene?<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t know, man. He shakes his head and in that motion I see him out on his lawn with all his things. I just don\u2019t know about this one.<\/p>\n

We\u2019re back on the road a week later. Buckinghams, Imperials, Gold Crowns and dozens of card tables. I keep a copy of Pruitt\u2019s paperwork and when the curiosity finally gets to me I call. The first time I get the machine. We\u2019re delivering at a house in Long Island with a view of the Sound that would break you. Wayne and I smoke a joint on the beach and I pick up a dead horseshoe crab by the tail and heave it in the customer\u2019s garage. The next two times I\u2019m in the Bedminster area Pruitt picks up and says, Yes? But on the fourth time she answers and the sink is running on her side of the phone and she shuts it off when I don\u2019t say anything.<\/p>\n

Was she there? Wayne asks in the truck.<\/p>\n

Of course she was.<\/p>\n

He runs a thumb over the front of his teeth. Pretty\u00a0predictable. She\u2019s probably in love with the guy. You\u00a0know how it is.<\/p>\n

I sure do.<\/p>\n

Don\u2019t get angry.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m tired, that\u2019s all.<\/p>\n

Tired\u2019s the best way to be, he says. It really is.<\/p>\n

He hands me the map and my fingers trace our deliveries, stitching city to city. Looks like we\u2019ve gotten everything, I say.<\/p>\n

Finally. He yawns. What\u2019s first tomorrow?<\/p>\n

We won\u2019t really know until the morning, when I\u2019ve gotten the paperwork in order but I take guesses anyway. One of our games. It passes the time, gives us something to look forward to. I close my eyes and put my hand on the map. So many towns, so many cities to choose from. Some places are sure bets but more than once I\u2019ve gone with the long shot and been right.<\/p>\n

You can\u2019t imagine how many times I\u2019ve been right.<\/p>\n

Usually the name will come to me fast, the way the numbered balls pop out during the lottery drawings, but this time nothing comes: no magic, no nothing. It could be anywhere. I open my eyes and see that Wayne is still waiting. Edison, I say, pressing my thumb down.
\nEdison, New Jersey.<\/p>\n

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Used with permission by Junot Diaz and Riverhead Books. Excerpted from DROWN by Junot D\u00edaz by arrangement with Riverhead Books, a member of Penguin Group (USA), Inc., Copyright \u00a9 1996 by Junot D\u00edaz.<\/p>\n

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photo credit – \u00a9Lily Oei<\/p><\/div>\n

Junot D\u00edaz was born in the Dominican Republic and raised in New Jersey. He is the author of the critically acclaimed\u00a0Drown<\/i>;\u00a0The Brief Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao<\/i>, which won the 2008 Pulitzer Prize and the National Book Critics Circle Award; and\u00a0This Is How You Lose Her<\/i>, a New York Times bestseller and National Book Award finalist. He is the recipient of a MacArthur \u201cGenius\u201d Fellowship, PEN\/Malamud Award, Dayton Literary Peace Prize, Guggenheim Fellowship, and PEN\/O. Henry Award.\u00a0A graduate of Rutgers College, D\u00edaz is currently the fiction editor at\u00a0Boston Review<\/i>\u00a0and the Rudge and Nancy Allen Professor of Writing at the Massachusetts Institute of Technology.<\/p>\n

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